What is Your Mood Today?

@RadicalDreamer Oh no, that sounds absolutely terrifying. I'm so sorry you're going through all that. Hope it gets better. <333

I've been really really tired for the past few days and kind of lowkey dysthymic if not actually depressed. Also frustrated with a specific situation but there's not much I can do about it.

i am so tired of being yelled at.

Tired in general. Is it weird that I'm at the point where I dread feeling tired even though it's inevitable? Like I'll be all set to actually do something and then, BAM, naptime.

stitchedmoon wrote:@RadicalDreamer Oh no, that sounds absolutely terrifying.  I'm so sorry you're going through all that.  Hope it gets better.  <333

I've been really really tired for the past few days and kind of lowkey dysthymic if not actually depressed.  Also frustrated with a specific situation but there's not much I can do about it.

Thanks. Doctors said my heart is mostly fine and that stress is the problem. But i think that stress caused a real physical problem. I have issues with digesting food, right now. Honestly, i think there is a problem with my stomach or esophagus (i did internet research and i recognized the symptoms i had the last couple of days... and not just this... i didn't eat that well either in the past and my teeth suffered acid attacks too... that plus stress and lack of sleep and i know what may be the problem). Seems silly to people around me but i'm afraid of cancer or something (supposedly, it's not too common... 10 %of cases at most... that's the only thing that makes me feel better... sort of... considering i'm still shaking with fear while i'm typing this). Maybe it's nothing but i can't help it... I'm scared. And i feel bad because i can't hide it from my parents. So my mom is tired and gets back pains and i feel like it's my fault. But I can't help panicking.
I hope things get better for you too.

EDIT : I think I know what's going on with me in the end. I have adrenaline rushes released by a gland (the amygdala) in the brain that deals with emotions. Lack of sleep and anxiety created a disorder that makes the gland release too much adrenaline at random moments (but especially when I'm feeling anxious and when I don't sleep). This is bothersome because it can lead to dementia, cardiac issues and stomach/intestine diseases. Some people even discovered that your anxiety issues can be caused by a tumor in the gland (it doesn't mean everyone with anxiety/adrenaline rushes has this problem). I heard it can be cured (chirurgy).
I've seen another doctor yesterday and he gave me stuff to deal with the acid in my stomach (nothing more, he didn't kept me at the hospital). Last night has been hell. It was like I was burning everywhere. Honestly thought it was my last moment on this earth. I had to take 1/2 of anxiolytic (lexomil) to finally sleep. I think I slept 8 hours during the night. Maybe a bit more, i dunno. The key for my recovery would be taking care of my digestive system, deal with the anxiety like a boss, do stuff that makes me feel useful (so less computer/fandom time) and do sport/relaxation... and NEVER EVER get sleep deprived (which I was yesterday *because I was panicking so much the night before that I couldn't sleep at all*... hence my hellish night).

So today, I was careful with what I was eating. I don't have a lot of apetite to be honest (felt a bit nauseous, it's like I can smell stuff more intensely than usual) but I can't not eat considering the meds I'm taking. I was prescribed some sodium bicarbonate but I must be careful with this thing. It's supposed to fight against acid but I don't want to have problems with my kidneys.

I keep fighting in my brain ("you can do it", "life is great", "I am the boss here", "sleep is good", "calm down, everything is fine"...), breathing slowly often, drinking lots of water (because acid and anxiety, not to mention peeing often and diarrhea... well, it makes the body kind of dry... my lips are constantly dry these days).
I want to get better. I want to get out of this mess. I don't want to die.

annoyed & sleepy

@RadicalDreamer *huuuugs* Hope you start to feel better soon. <3

I am very allergy.

I've had a lot on my mind lately, so I've been feeling a mixture of sad and anxious.

rather tired. need to exercise. maybe i should change my banner & avi?

Lonely
Tired
Arthritic

i dunno really.

Depressed
Lonely

Today was the shittiest bday ever.

pissed & hurt. been crying all day at my fucked up life thats not even my fault its this way then pissed cuz it is.

@Leah7 *hugs*

I'm all right. Chillaxin'.

was tired. needed energy went out for drinks & then disbelief some idiot near hit me in the street. now not tired at home & with energy.

Thank you, @stitchedmoon.  Also, hugs for @Shizukesa, unless you don't like hugs, because like....those posts are the sad. 

I wanted to like the post up there, stitched, but then I realized we can't like posts because we aren't using the reputation system.  *derp, derp*

Moods!
Tired! 
Hungry
aaannnnddd....more tired.  x.x'

pissed. couldve had a good day. had planned on it but noooooo ppl had to go & screw that. im really not being thought of well.

Exhausted
Pained
Lonely

eh so-so.

Tired, pained, and lonely.
Dreading tonight. -.-

I kind of generally feel like this most of the time:

In pain, but I'm quite content and very satisfied with how my contest turned out. *-* Still waking up, so I'm mildly sleepy, but I'm gewd. *happy dance*

anticipating

Tired
In Pain
Anxious
Impatient

i dunno

Content.