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    Post by RadicalDreamer on Wed Jan 25, 2017 8:12 pm

    "I'm utterly crushed by what's going on with the world. So much that I have trouble breathing well. So much that I really feel the need to get directly involved. And anytime I tried to talk to my family about it, it resulted in drama. Apparently, I shouldn't feel alarmed about the rise of nazis and my rights possibly going down the drain. And my father lost it completely *seems like he supports the far right in my country... it's kind of why I try to talk to him about this... just like I'm trying to convince my sister to vote in the upcoming elections... she feels like we're better off not caring at all... sigh*. He grabbed me by the hair and my mother had to restrain him twice so he wouldn't physically hurt me. But of course, I deserved it because "I went too far" (called him an idiot). And I got threatened further when I said I was going to report his violent behavior (he also seems to think I tell lies to everyone on the internet to mess with him... err... no dad, I just need people to talk to). Sadly, I'll probably never do it because he's my father and it's a hard thing to do... but I NEED to leave this house. I'm done with the toxic atmosphere. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I couldn't quite heal from my depression and anxiety. I have no money sure (and no close friends to go live with)... but I'll try to get help somehow. My psychiatrist told me recently to call a woman that may help me be registered as "disabled" (since, yeah... I'm almost 28 and I risk getting refused because I don't have a job history) and possibly help me to get a job somehow. Maybe she could also help me finding somewhere else to live.
    I was wondering for a while if I was the problem. Why I a toxic child/person ? Am I still ? I remember saying hurtful things in my life and regretting them. And I guess I wasn't a quiet/easy kid back then (then again, I think I always was filled with anxious energy... my mother was the same as a kid and was given medication... but she didn't dare even taking me to see a therapist... because she felt psychologists caused her mother's death... plus, one of her brothers was depressive too and disappeared one day... so, she really didn't want to deal with anything having to do with mental health... until I became a teen and refused to even go to school anymore... I remember the first psychologist I saw with my mother... let's say the psychologist wasn't too happy with my mom... which upset her... I understand why my mother waited so long, it wasn't good but I don't really hate her for it... at least, she recognized I needed help at some point... my father... damn, I don't think I would be there today if he was my only parent). But... geez... At least I recognize those things. He, on the other hand, can't seem to remember he made my nose bleed when I was a kid (or when he threw things at my mom when I was a small child... it happened once... but I still remember this vividly). And he still often denies I have severe depression/anxiety... sometimes making hurtful remarks about my lack of job when I want to share something that makes me happy. And it hurts all the more because he himself went through depression when he was a young adult."
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    Post by Shizukesa on Thu Feb 23, 2017 12:34 am

    how can somebody be this addicted to a game?


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Thu Feb 23, 2017 7:45 pm

    "Gosh darn it, as soon as it's not freezing outside it's time for STINKBUG HOME INVASION. Get off my computer, ya stinkin' bug.

    ... There's a bug on my computer. Heh."


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    Post by Shizukesa on Fri Apr 28, 2017 3:56 pm

    hi ppl.


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Mon May 01, 2017 7:51 am

    ^ Hiii!

    "Looks kinda foggy out there."


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    Post by Jintoki on Sat May 06, 2017 12:29 pm

    "Ooof, what a strange and creepy rabbit hole I've been dragged into."


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Sat May 06, 2017 2:32 pm

    "I Have Given Up. Oh crap, I'm sans undertale."


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    Post by Jintoki on Sun May 14, 2017 3:01 am

    "How can I be okay with being such a terrible person? I guess I'm just lazy."


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    Post by Shizukesa on Wed May 17, 2017 9:57 pm

    hi again!


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    Post by Jintoki on Thu May 18, 2017 1:13 am

    ^Hello!

    "Gah, what's making that sound outside? This is getting creepy..."


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    Post by Arylett Charnoa on Thu Jun 08, 2017 1:20 pm

    "Why can't I sleep? GO TO FREAKING SLEEP ARYLETT YOU STUPID INSOMNIAC WOMAN!"

    (I think my nocturnal schedule is beginning to catch up with me, but there's nothing I can do because my husband works at these odd times.)


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    Post by Shizukesa on Fri Jun 16, 2017 10:42 pm

    heys I'm back Razz cheers


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    Post by Shizukesa on Sat Jul 01, 2017 7:01 pm

    I WAS HACKED ON NEOPETS ON JUME 22ND! ASSHOLES ARE NOT STOPING THEM! SHITTY SITE EMPLOYEES!!!


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    Post by Shizukesa on Tue Jul 04, 2017 8:02 pm

    dude my banner is so sexy!


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Thu Jul 06, 2017 8:45 am

    "I should go, but it looks like it's going to be raining all day. Poot."


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    Post by Shizukesa on Sat Jul 08, 2017 6:31 pm

    damn photobucket!!!!!!!!!!!!


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Sun Jul 09, 2017 3:10 pm

    "Yeah, what is up with Photobucket these days anyway? It's like I stopped using it for a few years and when I came back it was completely non-functional."


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    Post by Shizukesa on Wed Jul 12, 2017 6:36 pm

    yeah ive always had pb always. ive had it many many years. not sure when but I loged in & was full of ads! O_o yes ads! they didn't do that before but its got ads now apparently. not sure when they got ads but its been recent months. just this week I loged into online game site I goto (I have guilds, shops & the whole 9 there so I have tons of stuff I make in paint/gimp etc for ppl to use & I give art gifts at times) so I have tons of stuff posted on the game site & I'm on every single day. every day. its a religion lol Razz so I go there like usual & omg! my images are all gone & theres this stupid thing in its place saying we screwed your image. buy are shit. you can see it where my banner used to be in my sig. that just happened this week. they are trying to force ppl who have free accounts & limited space of 2gb, upgraded paid accounts have more space but now they are trying to force the free accounts to get upgrade for $40 a month & of course that's insane! O_o so everybody that uses the site with free accounts are being screwed cuz they want more money. all its really going to do is make ppl find a different image host. I dunno who to use???


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Thu Jul 20, 2017 8:32 am

    Ugh, that sucks. Seems like it's part of the life cycle of sites like that--they start out free and then get bogged down with ads and garbage and start charging money for their crappy service. Dunno how that works as a business model, except as an act of desperation, I guess. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

    "Oh my god, phone, why do you randomly shut down for no reason when you have plenty of battery left? I've had you for like a year, you can't be going into planned obsolescence already. I ain't buying a new one."


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    Post by Shizukesa on Sat Jul 22, 2017 1:56 pm

    lol crappy sites suck lol.


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Tue Jul 25, 2017 3:45 pm

    "I think if I had to write an essay describing myself I'd just attach a picture of that shirt that says I HAVE GIVEN UP. Which may be why I haven't been interviewed for anything in a while."


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    Post by Shizukesa on Fri Jul 28, 2017 6:07 pm

    I hate life. I hate talking about life. I hate wasting life being upset at shit I cant change. fucking stop trying to force it out of me.


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    Post by Shizukesa on Tue Aug 01, 2017 11:17 pm

    I have spent all day on power pets & gaia.


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    Post by stitchedmoon on Wed Aug 02, 2017 3:58 pm

    "Should I drink more coffee or take a nap? The eternal dilemma."


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    Post by Shizukesa on Thu Aug 03, 2017 7:32 pm

    I need to eat.


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